Never been happier. Bitter.

Hello, how are you? Been a while since I didn't write on my blog, I can't say anything, after what has been happening lately. Slumped. Hopeless. Give up. Very sad that I have to write about this on my blog.
I was so sad, so down, I was at the lowest point, that I had to let go of all my dreams, so painful, it feels very hurt more than anything, so I just cried, over and over again. I'm not sure if I should let it go, because this is my passion. Makes me feel so alive. Oh my god, why am I so sad. I don't care about anything. I know, no one cares, because everyone will be busy with their own thoughts. People always judge other people, and so on, I really don't care. Once again, I missed all of my dreams, and hopes, to be successful, then I build it from zero, and then crushed like a lego that has been dropped. I'm so hurt.
I'm sorry that i'm back then write words like these, no outfit post, just a piece of hope that has been fragile and dreams that have been lost. You know, I'm trying to build, I built it with this blog. I built it with all my heart.. oh.. my sweet happiness. So sick. I feel this is not me, weird, awkward. What i supposed to do? Almost a year I built it with my blog, my happiness. I was slumped with some troubles lately, too many stories, that will always make us feel more mature, we will learn better, and better. I don't know why, so hard to believe with others, when all people have millions of thoughts about us.. When they fell to us, are they really fall? I'm not sure. Honestly, can you believe, we crossed the world while it's asleep. I'd never trade it in. Because i've always wanted this and it's not a dream anymore, no, it's not a dream anymore. It's worth fighting for. Could have given up so easily, i was a few cheap shots away. One thing, uhh ohh see you my next post, my outfit post, promise! ^^ Huge hug!


  1. I really don't think you should let go of your dream if it makes you so happy. After all, noting happens right away. People work like damn farm animals, to achieve their dreams. The easiest thing is to give up.

  2. Aww Rin. Things can only get better. Never throw away your dreams because they don't have expiration dates.


  3. thank you ♥
    I follow you already for some time past :)

  4. :( cheer up ci,they said, we've to be sad sometimes, so we won't forget how great it is to be happy :')
    hope things will get better soon xoxo

  5. just watch this :

    it's might works for you too....
    atleast it always works for me...


  6. Love the blog. I am new at blogging if you could give me any advice it would be great :) thanks I am following you, follow back?

  7. Don't give up dear! Just live your dream!


  8. great blog ♥
    xx Jules

  9. Babe, you are sooo beautiful and have the best style ever! You are super stylish and sending u a big hug! IT's the best to use your blog as an outlet and expression! Lots of love!!!!
    xoThe Beckerman Girls
    PS. We are doing a big Maison Martin Margiela with H&M Giveaway on our blog!

  10. hope all is well with you soon. cheer up & take care *hugs*


    1. I love your outfits, you are really inspiring!
      What do you think of following each other? :)

  11. dont give up !


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