Never been happier. Bitter.

Hello, how are you? Been a while since I didn't write on my blog, I can't say anything, after what has been happening lately. Slumped. Hopeless. Give up. Very sad that I have to write about this on my blog.
I was so sad, so down, I was at the lowest point, that I had to let go of all my dreams, so painful, it feels very hurt more than anything, so I just cried, over and over again. I'm not sure if I should let it go, because this is my passion. Makes me feel so alive. Oh my god, why am I so sad. I don't care about anything. I know, no one cares, because everyone will be busy with their own thoughts. People always judge other people, and so on, I really don't care. Once again, I missed all of my dreams, and hopes, to be successful, then I build it from zero, and then crushed like a lego that has been dropped. I'm so hurt.

I'm sorry that i'm back then write words like these, no outfit post, just a piece of hope that has been fragile and dreams that have been lost. You know, I'm trying to build, I built it with this blog. I built it with all my heart.. oh.. my sweet happiness. So sick. I feel this is not me, weird, awkward. What i supposed to do? Almost a year I built it with my blog, my happiness. I was slumped with some troubles lately, too many stories, that will always make us feel more mature, we will learn better, and better. I don't know why, so hard to believe with others, when all people have millions of thoughts about us.. When they fell to us, are they really fall? I'm not sure. Honestly, can you believe, we crossed the world while it's asleep. I'd never trade it in. Because i've always wanted this and it's not a dream anymore, no, it's not a dream anymore. It's worth fighting for. Could have given up so easily, i was a few cheap shots away. One thing, uhh ohh see you my next post, my outfit post, promise! ^^ Huge hug!